Oh my god.

[minviendha]

Oh my god oh my god oh my god.

This doesn't happen. This just doesn't happen.

My brother was just in a bike accident. He's at the hospital. They think he's going to be okay, but...

OH MY GOD.

This is so scary. Since forever I've had this terrible fear that I'm going to get hit by a car or get in a car accident, but it's never happened to anyone I know. And my brother. At 11:00 at night, my brother is in the hospital. Mom went to Seattle.

I'm probably freaking out over nothing, but I'm scared and worried out of my mind. My stomach hurts and I'm rocking back and forth in my chair and I'm afraid I'm going to cry. I need a hug. Or something.

I need a nervous breakdown. Crying isn't helping. I just feel so tense and scared and stressed and I'm going crazy and now this happens.

Life has a strange sense of humor.

I'm just sitting here, half numb, half terrified. I should be asleep. I should have been asleep two hours ago. My god, I'm scared. What if he dies? How would I handle the death of someone close to me? I practically break down just thinking about my dog dying, for god's sake. I'd never survive someone really close to me actually dying. I'm just not strong enough.

Just a minute ago, I was thinking about spring break and what book I was going to read. And now...

Now I don't know what to think.

I don't think I'll get much sleep tonight. Things will probably look better in the morning, but still...

Right now it's hard to look that far ahead.

Comments

[redsilkscarf.livejournal.com]

Oh, baby... that's terrible! *HUGS* :(! But I PROMISE PROMISE PROMISE he'll be all right! My mama got into a bike accident a few years ago and had to be airlifted to the hospital out in Seattle and she's just fine; so I'm sure it will be the same with your brother. Do you want to talk? You can call me if you want, or sign on to AIM or e-mail me or something. I'd like to talk with you right now! I want to make sure you're okay, too. Can I call you right now? I won't tell you not to worry because I know that you won't listen to that, but I'm praying that your worries will be groundless, then. I'm sure they will be. Your brother is hardcore; he'll pull through! Hugs and kisses, doll! I love you!

[zorpisuttle.livejournal.com]

Eeheegh. :( I don't really know what to tell you, but I really hope everything will be ok!

[minviendha.livejournal.com]

The icon is worth a thousand words. And good advice, too, since everything's fine now.

[geartemis.livejournal.com]

Oh honey...*hugs* I hope Stephen will be all right.

[sizzlinfoo.livejournal.com]

Yeah I don't know if you got the anonymous post I just made which was basically because I forgot to sign in so I had to abort it. But even though this is my second post... that is still incredibly oh my gosh. I mean, I'm numb reading it a day later, for the second time.

I'm going to spray you with icons. It won't help, but maybe it'll help take your mind off things.

Give me a call if you want to hang out or talk or anything. Everything's going to be ok.